...when life says... i can be difficult, pesky, frustrating, fickle, sad, stressful, painful, crabby, cranky, & most of all heartbreaking...
...i say, i need to hibernate...which entails: lots of quiet time for me -- sitting on the bench the mister built with new plants peeking out & drink my ginger peach tea (favorite ever. ever ever.) puttering around the studio half heartedly cleaning up & possibly thinking about new ideas. baking cookies & cooking meals. spoiling dixie loo dog. crawling up into the bean bag chair and listening to endless youtubes of antony & cocorosie. reading, reading, reading. eating dark chocolate. buying flowers, tending my plants, and doing some healthy staring into the clouds...... & lots of thinking. & trying to regain that balance when life swings her mood down into the dark...
i'm a true cancer at heart. i'm not much of a spiller but to close friends - it's hard for me to trust and be super open until you've stuck around a little and my poor little cancer self can crack open a bit -- but tomorrow i go to see 2 of my favorite girlies -- to chat, to drink cocktails, and to sort out some life mess through being amongst each other. i'm super thankful for these ladies i've know almost since i moved here in 2001.
i leave for portland on tuesday for the pickathon with this lovely gal. we didn't think we'd have any time this summer to actually clear our heads and get out - through some rather upsetting circumstances, we actually are leaving -- which is the most needed thing in the world right now. we need the coast, sunsets, dixie on the beach & a cozy blanket wrapped around the 2 of us - a little snug cocoon...& when we come back mid august perhaps i'll be ready to peek back out and chase after that light again...
...i know i will be...i just need a little time. :)
xxx.
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4 comments:
thinking of you, jenifer!
i have those same cancer tendencies.
hope things are better soon.
xoxo
oh sweetie, this post makes me sad that i can't give you a hug right now. :( thinking of you and dixie loo and mr bob too! xoxo
I so get the hibernation. I was traveling last week and almost ended up in hibernation in a foreign land. Should have called you and we could have agreed in total silence to hibernate together - and I'm not a cancer. major hugs to you and here's hoping the bench works its magic - sian
i also tend to hop on that hibernation train from time to time. i totally get it. it's like everything just needs to slow down for long enough to have a cup of tea and stare out the window. i hope your portland trip and dear friends offer some solace. and your dixie loo too. thinking of you...
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