...taking a little break guys...sad news on top of sad news on top of my IBS flaring up on top of not having my mister with me = one teary overwhelmed girl...you know when you just feel like one more bit of sad in the world is going to topple you over & make you spiral a little bit into...well, into the "too much is too much" space. that space for me right now includes, my brother & sister-in-law losing their 4 mo. old baby, my cousin who struggles with drug addiction being back in jail, my IBS flaring up beyond control, 2 neighbors leaving me and leaving a sad building, my one lovely friend who is my confidant at work leaving until january, 2 good friends losing their fathers in the past month, & me feeling super lonely with bl in virginia and me here in SF.
i know i need a break from the world when riding the bus into work this morning i want to cry listening to lucinda williams 'blue' on my ipod, the bus driver hits a construction man, & walking the streets up to my school i pass 4 homeless men who all look at me so pleadingly...it was/is all i can do to make it up the hill & try to start the day w/o totally losing it.
so, i'm taking a break. i need some time to re-energize & re-focus -- maybe a week or two...maybe less. but i need some things to lift some of this before i have creative-ness & fun-ness & joy-ness to spread again.
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