2007...please come quick.

anyone else ready for 2007 already? probably not. i'm reading everywhere how excited everyone is for thanksgiving, & the rest of the holidays...but not me. i'm in a funk. now i know i've been sick, which is contributing to this melancholia...& that my mr. is not with me...but still. i just am over bad, sad news. a friend/good acquaintance just passed away - last evening...she has been struggling with cancer & when i saw her last this summer, was in remission...& then i get the phone call. she was in her 30's...her *thirties*...so crazy...of course, tears (my trusty watery friends) surface...& i think, 'i am so done with all of this'...i'm ready for a new start. a bright morning. some happy sunshine in my equilibrium...i'm done with the over-wrought sighs...so i crawled into bed last evening...not even 6pm...pull covers over my head. try to relax. try to focus on the positive.

i gotta figure out how to shake myself out of this...maybe i need to buy myself a treat. :) maybe i need this...so sweet, no?

it started raining last night; & it fits well. i'm liking the gray skies & wet trees. i go in for my CT scan tomorrow - not looking forward to that either. i have to drink this nasty stuff to light up my insides...3 times i have to drink loads of this crud. i'm over making myself feel sick in order to see why i'm sick... what a complainer i am...give me cheery news folks, i want to hear happy comments damn it!

i also promised i'd post more about business so here goes the sprout studio news: i'm doing a trunk show on the 18th of november with the san francisco craft mafia - i think the only holiday show i signed up for. staying very low profile...but it shoulud be fun to hang with the SF craft peepers for sure...

xxx.